Benjamin - 5 Months Old!

Our sweet baby Benjamin is 5 months old today! Where in the world has time gone? They say that the days are long and the years are short, but I honestly feel like every day is too short to enjoy this bundle of awesomeness! No, really. I wish I could press the pause button on life with my two amazing little boys. They are both growing up way too fast!

Benjamin continues to impress us with his mild-manored ways. Of course, we do know that he is yet to become mobile and that changes everything in an instant. But we are thoroughly enjoying this stage of cuddles and giggles! It is so very precious to us!

With two teeth and a track-record of great eating, this little {big} guy is just about ready to start solid foods. I have introduced tastes to him {carrots, pears, cereal, etc.} but solids are not a regular part of his diet yet. I know he's going to LOVE eating more and more {like his big brother}!

Benjamin smiles all the time! Even when he may be having a hard day {TEETHING}, he can't help but smile when he gets a glimpse of his momma, abba, or brother! It is so tender & sweet!

We thank God for the blessing of Benjamin Henry and can't wait to see how he continues to grow!

Lovin' rice cereal!!

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Cup overflowing! {2 weeks. 18 months.}

So I wanted to be very diligent about updating my blog about the milestones that Benjamin and Samuel hit from this point on because I found that when I went to make Samuel's baby book, I was not very successful remembering all the nitty gritty details. However, to be extremely exact when documenting smiles, snapping pictures, and various other activities that must be done to keep up, it's just almost close to impossible. I mean, I have an 18 month old and a 2-week old, for cryin' out loud! Can you believe that? TWO SONS!

Here are the stats of Benjamin's birth:

Born at 2:37pm, weighing in at 9lbs, 1oz, with a height of 20.5 inches! 

The past 2 weeks have been the craziest whirl-wind from giving birth to Benjamin, having family in town, being told that Benjamin was not gaining enough weight, to balancing the beautiful chaos that is Samuel Clutterham! It has been full of ups and downs, but has been so precious thus far.

In the first week, we have been working on getting Benjamin to eat better and to gain more weight. When we first went into the Dr. (a bit earlier than 1 week since he was a little jaundice), Benjamin had gone from 9lbs1oz (birth weight) to 8lbs3oz. The Dr. told me to begin supplementing his feedings with extra breast-milk. This is exactly what happened with Samuel so I was prepared to begin this journey of long pumping sessions and bottle experimentation. Benjamin seemed to be doing a lot better, however when we went in 2 days later, Benjamin had not gained anything! I was devastated as I felt I had been working so hard to plump him up. With that, I determined to work diligently day and night to get this guy gaining weight. We continued the regiman and two days later we went into Dr. Nick's office and Benjamin had gained 9oz! Bringing him to 8lbs12oz! What a relief and praise to our gracious God!

In the past two weeks, Benjamin has grown (not only physically) so much! He is eating much better and sleeping better as well. We have some hiccups during day-time naps, but for the most part, he is a pretty consistent baby. He wakes up once during the night to be fed and falls (for the most part) right back to sleep until I wake him at 7am to get him fed before big brother wakes up at 8. 

Samuel is enjoying the baby more and more. He runs into our bedroom to see his little brother, which usually ends in us escorting him out so that Benjamin can rest. He is very interested when he gets the opportunity to interact with little brother and tries to touch his nose, eyes, ears, or head. I think he likes how soft Benjamin feels. He gets very, very excited when he's allowed to explore :)

 We enjoyed a short stroll in the neighborhood in our double stroller. I love how the side Benjamin sits on can recline all the way back so that he is able to join in the fun! I look forward to when both of the boys are sitting up enjoying the view...and each other! 

Along with new adventures and new challenges, we have also been blessed with a wonderful ministry through Baxter Avenue Church! The MEAL ministry! Throughout the past two weeks, God has provided wonderfully tasty meals through this amazing ministry! Unfortunately, I haven't taken pictures of every meal or visitor, but if I had, I would proudly display them :)

Until next time, here are a few pictures that we took in the hospital of Benjamin Henry Clutterham:

Benjamin meeting Dr. Nick for the first time! He is such a great pediatrician!

Coming HOME!

FIRST BATH {9.25.12}

Tummy time :)

Join me in praising our living God for such sweet blessings! He is so good and gracious!

{Forgive me if this post seems a little scatter-brained. Hopefully future posts will be a little more "together" :)}

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Grace in Trials

A fitting prayer from the Valley of Vision. I pray that in the deepest of trials, trouble, and heartache, God would increase His graces that would empower us against our own flesh and the darts of Satan...

Grace in Trials

FATHER OF MERCIES, Hear me for Jesus’ sake. I am sinful even in my closest walk with thee; it is of thy mercy I died not long ago; Thy grace has given me in the cross by which thou hast reconciled thyself to me and me to thee, drawing me by thy great love, reckoning me as innocent in Christ though guilty in myself.

Giver of all graces, I look to thee for strength to maintain them in me, for it is hard to practise what I believe. Strengthen me against temptations. My heart is an unexhausted fountain of sin, a river of corruption since childhood days, flowing on in every pattern of behaviour; Thou hast disarmed me of the means in which I trusted, and I have no strength but in thee.

Thou alone canst hold back my evil ways, but without thy grace to sustain me I fall. Satan’s darts quickly inflame me, and the shield that should quench them easily drops from my hand: Empower me against his wiles and assaults. Keep me sensible of my weakness, and of my dependence upon thy strength. Let every trial teach me more of thy peace, more of thy love.

Thy Holy Spirit is given to increase thy graces, and I cannot preserve or improve them unless he works continually in me. May he confirm my trust in thy promised help, and let me walk humbly in dependence upon thee, for Jesus’ sake. (Valley of Vision, p. 310 of the little black leather edition)

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A secret to joy

It's been almost two months since I've written a blog post. This hiatus was certainly not my intention and I hate that I haven't kept up with writing. Granted, I am not a writer, but thought this would be a good avenue to encourage, bless, challenge, etc. So, I've come to write a very brief post about a song I heard on the radio yesterday. The song is Steven Curtis Chapman's Do Everything. I have actually heard the song many times before but I've never actually listened to the very first verse. It was SO encouraging to me:

You're picking up toys on the living room floor
For the fifteenth time today
Matching up socks and sweeping up lost Cheerios that got away
You put a baby on your hip and color on your lips
And head out the door
And while I may not know you I bet I know you
Wonder sometimes does it matter at all?
Well let me remind you it all matters just as long

As you do everything you do to the glory of the One who made you
Cause He made you to do
Every little thing that you do to bring a smile to His face
And tell the story of grace
With every move that you make
And every little thing you do

This came as such an encouragement to me as just that very morning, I was thinking, "I think I pick up more cheerios than Samuel puts in his mouth." Funny how a song can express my very thoughts :) Anyway, I began thinking about my own fight for joy in the everyday life of being a wife and mother. These lyrics - this biblical concept - is one secret to having joy in the mundane: Do EVERY LITTLE thing to the glory of God. For His kingdom. Because He loves you and died for you. 

This song definitely helped me this morning as I was disinfecting and swiffering our entire apartment. Clearing our germies to the glory of God! Amen?

May I do everything "to bring a smile to His face" :)

So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God. 1 Corinthians 10:31

And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. Colossians 3:17

Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men. Colossians 3:23

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The Prayer of Love

Valley of Vision: The Prayer of Love

Gracious Lord,

Thy name is love,

         in love receive my prayer.

My sins are more than the wide sea’s sand,

   but where sin abounds,

   there is grace more abundant.

Look to the cross of thy beloved Son,

   and view the preciousness of his atoning blood;

Listen to his never-failing intercession,

   and whisper to my heart, ‘Thy sins are forgiven,

      be of good cheer, lie down in peace.’

Grace cataracts from heaven and flows for ever,

   and mercy never wearies in bestowing benefits.

Grant me more and more

   to prize the privilege of prayer,

   to come to thee as a sin-soiled sinner,

   to find pardon in thee,

   to converse with thee;

   to know thee in prayer as

         the path in which my feet tread,

         the latch upon the door of my lips,

         the light that shines through my eyes,

         the music of my ears,

         the marrow of my understanding,

         the strength of my will,

         the power of my affection,

         the sweetness of my memory.

May the matter of my prayer be always

   wise, humble, submissive,

   obedient, scriptural, Christ-like.

Give me unwavering faith

   that supplications are never in vain,

   that if I seem not to obtain my petitions

     I shall have larger, richer answers,

     surpassing all that I ask or think.

Unsought, thou hast given me

   the greatest gift, the person of thy Son,

   and in him thou wilt give me all I need.

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She has been with Jesus!

 

Today, as I was reading my Bible (I'm working through Dr. Horner's Bible Reading Plan), I came across a passage that I've read many times but was truly amazed by for the first time. I was reading Acts 4, where Peter and John are before the council after being put into prison for preaching "in Jesus the resurrection from the dead." The next section of this account is what truly amazed me this morning:

Then Peter, filled with the Holy Spirit, said to them, “Rulers of the people and elders, if we are being examined today concerning a good deed done to a crippled man, by what means this man has been healed, let it be known to all of you and to all the people of Israel that by the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, whom you crucified, whom God raised from the dead—by him this man is standing before you well. This Jesus is the stone that was rejected by you, the builders, which has become the cornerstone. And there is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved.”

Now when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, and perceived that they were uneducated, common men, they were astonished. And they recognized that they had been with Jesus. Acts 4:8-13

First off, being filled with the Holy Spirit, Peter was so bold! He spoke God's truth with clarity and conviction. It was this boldness that allowed him to say what I always desire to say but often allow my sin to keep me from saying:

"And there is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved.” 

I began to think, "I AM filled with the Holy Spirit and because of that, I can proclaim this message to people who need to hear it!" It was just astonishing to me that this same Spirit who gave Peter this boldness is the same Spirit living within me!

The next thing that really got me thinking, was the people's responses to this message that they were hearing from Peter and John. Just as I was astonished, so were these men overhearing this message. Not only were they astonished, they "recognized that they had been with Jesus." What made these people recognize that these men had been with Jesus? Was it the miracles? The fact that they were uneducated and common? Or was it because these men were filled with the Spirit boldly proclaiming Jesus Christ, though they had no worldly education? I dare say it was the latter. God had given them boldness - a light - that was undeniably from above. 

I began thinking, "well, my goodness, if people heard me speak would they recognize that I am a child of God? Would they decipher that I spend time alone with God, learning His heart so that I might be more like Him? Would it be unmistakable that I have been with Jesus?? This was a convicting thought that reminded me of my need to daily check my life to be sure that I am being a light in this world!

I was also reminded of something else, however. That we are called to be bold, but at the same time, we are called to be gentle. It is FAR too easy to be bold without the element of gentleness. I know too many people, including myself, who have royally messed up the opportunity to give the gospel, a rebuke, or even an encouragement because the way they presented it was much too harsh. When reading this passage about Peter's boldness given by the Spirit, I could not help but think of this passage:

but in your hearts honor Christ the Lord as holy, always being prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and respect, 1 Peter 3:15

Here is the same man who was filled with the Holy Spirit and with boldness in the book of Acts. He must have learned his lesson, just as I am continually learning, that the message preached must be preached with respect and gentleness or it will be futile. I love that Jesus is our perfect example of being bold, yet gentle. I love that, because of the Holy Spirit, we can be like Him!

Those were just a few thoughts from my reading today. May I be the type of woman that when people interact with me, they recognize that I have been with Jesus! 

PS: Today is the first day of February. Second month of the Joy Dare!

I'm also starting this today!

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